I always had a vivid imagination, I always sobbed when the hero died in the arms of his or her beloved, I always pictured that my own life, my own love story will be as intense as the ones i watched in the big or small screen...Perhaps i was asking for too much, perhaps no one got my way of thinking...I'm a hopeless romantic who enjoys watching a sun rise in the arms of the one I love.
I had that love once (strike that out) I thought i had that love once...in my delusional state of mind, i believed that lie..that is now a far distant memory...because as soon as I pulled myself out of charade, i saw what was, what should never have been and what was to come if i was to hang on that thread of lies and deceit, and despite everything I'm still a hopeless romantic...
For months I locked my heart in a box and hid the key in a secret place and vowed, to never ever love again, or allow myself that feeling, i wasn't ready to go the heart break and pain again and again...I wasn't looking to love or to be loved all though I missed that feeling deeply, i would stop myself and say never again...and then you step into my life...and things change...
how long have we known each other? two weeks? three? why does it feel that i have known you for an eternity...you were not just a random stranger I have crossed path with someday...i know that i know you...you seem familiar...everything is easy with you...talking, venting, joking even dreaming is easier with you..
I love it when I wake up in the morning, knowing that a message will be waiting for me...your voice is the last thing i hear when i go to sleep, and the first thing I hear when i wake up...I love your random texts that hit me out of nowhere and make me giggle the whole time...and as I am a hopeless romantic you are the same..and i love that about you...
you talked about how we will watch the sunrise together, walk hand in hand, the places we would visit together and the things we will do...the food we will eat, the music we will dance to...i almost freaked out ..in my head i know I wrote all those things down in my letters to the universe ..down to the bubble bath and the lazy mornings in a rainy day...
You see me as I am...and with you I'm myself...I'm me ..that part that i buried deep long ago...and now I'm opening that box again, to let that heart beat again as it should have long ago...
Did we plan for this??? I sure didn't, till days ago we were just checking on each other from time to time..seeing how things were going..what we were up to...just random conversations and hangouts and places to go... wait for it ..your favorite word " Lounging" ...
And then you hit me out of the blue..with I like you,...I mean, ok what's not to like about me??( not striking that out) but my question to you was ..you don't even know me!!! how the hell can you like me??
You are thousands of miles away from me, yet it is as if you are here, there's no hour that passes by without me hearing your voice, or you checking on me...
You said you feel that we are connected, somehow, someway we are connected...i don't know how the universe works but I can tell that this is some crazy stuff going on and that I have to have faith.
I only hope ..I won't crash and burn again...and until I see you ...I'm going to have faith...because I'm a hopeless romantic.
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