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Saturday, May 28, 2016

The Mystery Man

I don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me or if I'm seriously getting crazy...
At first, I didn't pay much attention to the dream I had couple of weeks ago, I categorized it as random due to emotional and physical stress and that was just my subconscious or maybe my conscious mind trying to cope with whatever I was dealing with.
First Dream: I was somewhere crowded to the point that I felt suffocated by all the people around me...I tried to get away from the crowd but was pushed further into it I stumbled and fell..and there a hand appeared out of nowhere and lifted me up...and I heard a voice saying " I got You" I didn't even had the chance to thank the person, ask him his name or even see his features...I woke up...
Second Dream: I was at a mall, doing some last minute shopping, heading back to my car, a person calling after me ...I turn and there a tall silhouette heading towards me...handing me a bag...all I heard was" you forgot this one" I thanked him and asked " you are the same guy who helped me last time?"
he looked at me with his jet black eyes " yes and soon you will know more" and he vanished .,,
Unlike the first dream, this one kept me thinking, seeing the same person twice in a dream can't be a coincidence..there must be something behind this...knowing that 90% of my dreams or the messages I get through dreaming were always accurate...so like a good girl ..I said to myself "Third time is  charm...if this mystery man appears again ..then it's a sign"
Now you must be wondering if he appeared ... well let me tell you this..not once, not twice..but almost every other night...
Third Dream: I was walking on the beach all alone, and there he was...next to me ..tall with his olive skin tone, short black hair, white T and blue shorts...he held my hand and kept walking next to me...I asked many questions to which he replied" soon we will meet..just keep going...take care of yourself, you are on the right path and I'm on my way to come to you..."
In every dream he was repeating the same message " soon, hang in there ..when all is over we will meet and I will change your life forever".
Sometimes, I think that I'm going mad, that I have lost my mind and become delusional, and I tell myself this is my mind playing tricks on me...but how can that be when I can describe a person to a T a person I have never met in my life and yet I feel as if I have known him my entire life..., the only clues I have in this endeavour are if in one single day I see the Letter "A" a Dove and a white and red Heart (which he told me about in at least 4 dreams and never paid attention to), then the day I will meet this Mystery Man is getting closer... well I saw the letter A, the red and white heart and the dove on Thursday all by chance in a span of 5 hours..
The Dreams are getting more vivid night after night...and believe me, I started looking forward to going to bed fore-that is the reality I need to live in...
To Be Continued....

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Obsession

I know, the journey to recovery...self healing...takes a lot of strength, patience, effort and especially courage...and although I give my 100% I find myself obsessing over things.

The last 2 days, I was obsessing about the apartment I want to rent, nothing vacant yet, I'm really getting to an unhealthy place, to a point that it's making me in a bad mood...I called my mom venting to her about the apartment, my friends...

I caught myself obsessing about it today at least every other 30 minutes...that's not normal...my Boss told me you are very impatient...it will come in time...just wait...I found myself answering..I want it now...I just need that apartment to be able to start working on myself and finding my peace of mind, and he let out this phrase" don't you see that you are already working on yourself and that you are not the old YOU..a much BETTER YOU"

I went back to my desk, searched for a positive affirmations video, put my head set on and listened to that video for an hour while I was putting the finishing touches to the project I was working on...I felt good...I stopped thinking about that apartment..(well now I'm thinking about again :) ).

So tonight before sleeping, I will pray to God, and I will use my imagination and my thoughts to manifest my beautiful apartment, i will see myself living in it...