Still two weeks to go...very long two weeks to close the chapter to the past once and for all.
Looking back, and remembering the tsunami I went through, the thoughts I had then, the fears, I never thought I would survive, today I laugh and regret the tears I've shed, today I feel different, strong and in control of my OWN LIFE...
I enjoy the peace, I enjoy going to sleep without having to worry, without waking up with panic attacks and nightmares...I simply enjoy my life.
I'm typing this, sitting in my balcony, sipping an espresso and listening to my favourite music with a big smile on my face...I now know that I'm done with the past...and of course I'm looking forward to what the future holds for me...
I was knocked down, hit rock bottom, but like a phoenix I rose back from the ashes...a better and improved me...
I don't dwell in the what ifs ...for me there's only now and tomorrow...no more yesterdays...and why waste energy with yesterday when we already know that we can't undo what's already done :P
I'm in a much happier place today..more at peace..more in sync with myself...even people noticed " I'm glowing and more vibrant".
I spent time and energy on myself...yoga, meditation, went through books, journalling, praying and I must say it paid of...and I'm proud of myself...I didn't go through the self destruction road.
I cried, there was time I couldn't stand being around people, seeing happy couples together...but today, I smile whenever I see a couple in love...that simply makes me happy.
I met new people, good people who empowered me, who understood where I was coming from and who put all their effort to stand by me and for that I'm grateful.
Of course, I had also my support system, my best friends, who bless them all, made always the time to check on me and cheer me up if I had one of those days.
Two weeks to go and then I'm officially free... I'm looking for that day with anticipation...flight is booked for a trip ( Istanbul in August), and planning two more trips before the end of the year London in September and Las Vegas in October) ..Life is simply AMAZING.
They say...when life gives you a lemon, make lemonade out of it..I say..cut the lemon in two, and squeeze it in the eyes of the one who gave it to you in the first place...sometimes it's not enough to play by the rules...sometimes you have to make your own rules.
xoxo
Looking back, and remembering the tsunami I went through, the thoughts I had then, the fears, I never thought I would survive, today I laugh and regret the tears I've shed, today I feel different, strong and in control of my OWN LIFE...
I enjoy the peace, I enjoy going to sleep without having to worry, without waking up with panic attacks and nightmares...I simply enjoy my life.
I'm typing this, sitting in my balcony, sipping an espresso and listening to my favourite music with a big smile on my face...I now know that I'm done with the past...and of course I'm looking forward to what the future holds for me...
I was knocked down, hit rock bottom, but like a phoenix I rose back from the ashes...a better and improved me...
I don't dwell in the what ifs ...for me there's only now and tomorrow...no more yesterdays...and why waste energy with yesterday when we already know that we can't undo what's already done :P
I'm in a much happier place today..more at peace..more in sync with myself...even people noticed " I'm glowing and more vibrant".
I spent time and energy on myself...yoga, meditation, went through books, journalling, praying and I must say it paid of...and I'm proud of myself...I didn't go through the self destruction road.
I cried, there was time I couldn't stand being around people, seeing happy couples together...but today, I smile whenever I see a couple in love...that simply makes me happy.
I met new people, good people who empowered me, who understood where I was coming from and who put all their effort to stand by me and for that I'm grateful.
Of course, I had also my support system, my best friends, who bless them all, made always the time to check on me and cheer me up if I had one of those days.
Two weeks to go and then I'm officially free... I'm looking for that day with anticipation...flight is booked for a trip ( Istanbul in August), and planning two more trips before the end of the year London in September and Las Vegas in October) ..Life is simply AMAZING.
They say...when life gives you a lemon, make lemonade out of it..I say..cut the lemon in two, and squeeze it in the eyes of the one who gave it to you in the first place...sometimes it's not enough to play by the rules...sometimes you have to make your own rules.
xoxo
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