I'm writing this on June 12, yet this will only be published on the 19th or 20th, one week or so ..because on that day I will be officially and finally free...free to live my life at the fullest...without judgement without the shadow of still being "married" and that i have to wait the 3 months period to be able to get on with my life " not that I've been locked in a dark room without windows or something...it only means that i can finally fall in love and get on with my life.
My girl friends promised me a night out to celebrate the end of this messed up period...mentally, emotionally and physically I have done all the work that was needed on myself and I moved on...and today i just wonder how on earth did I stay in that marriage for so long...even when people ask me why did I stay for so long ..I don't seem to find an answer!!!
Today I celebrate my new life ahead...close the doors on a bitter sweet past "but mostly bitter"...today I embrace my new journey...I don't know where the roads will end up leading me ..but all I know is that I'm hungry for life, striving for fulfillment, accomplishments and success...too many doors started opening for me, too many signs of synchronicity are popping all over at all times...things I didn't believe i could do yesterday seem so easy and effortless.
I missed on life for 7 years, 7 years I thought or let me say I was under the illusion of being alive while i was dead inside...and tho the struggle was real..the pain tore me apart when the divorce papers were signed and I cried my soul out...today I can see, that all that was needed in order for me to see the truth...the blind fold was lifted and all I could see was that I was living an illusion.
I have no hard feelings ..no hate or anger...Au contraire, I would love to thank my Ex Husband and his wife for what they have done..because without that I would still be living a miserable life...who knows maybe one day I thank them personally for that...
I have a friend telling me that I should be proud of myself, that I'm very strong even if I don't see that, and that one day I will be rewarded...
My freedom and peace of mind are rewards enough for me...I gained myself back..myself that have been lost for years...and today I'm a bit wiser than 7 years ago...so I know what not to attract anymore...I know when to set boundaries and what not to expect from others.
Today I know my worth, and I know that in no case I will settle for less than I deserve...
The PAIN broke me, yet it made me stronger, wiser ..after reaching rock bottom..here I am standing tall, confident and no matter what comes my way from now on...I will handle it.
People tend to hold on to the memories..I won't, I never clanged to memories, places or people...as life goes on, I leave everything behind and move on...no lingering, no regrets, no second chances.
My list to the universe is made...and somethings are already manifesting in a big way...
Today is the first day of the rest of my life...I'm writing my own script and life is my stage.
I laugh, I dance, I love and I dream... Finally.
..
My girl friends promised me a night out to celebrate the end of this messed up period...mentally, emotionally and physically I have done all the work that was needed on myself and I moved on...and today i just wonder how on earth did I stay in that marriage for so long...even when people ask me why did I stay for so long ..I don't seem to find an answer!!!
Today I celebrate my new life ahead...close the doors on a bitter sweet past "but mostly bitter"...today I embrace my new journey...I don't know where the roads will end up leading me ..but all I know is that I'm hungry for life, striving for fulfillment, accomplishments and success...too many doors started opening for me, too many signs of synchronicity are popping all over at all times...things I didn't believe i could do yesterday seem so easy and effortless.
I missed on life for 7 years, 7 years I thought or let me say I was under the illusion of being alive while i was dead inside...and tho the struggle was real..the pain tore me apart when the divorce papers were signed and I cried my soul out...today I can see, that all that was needed in order for me to see the truth...the blind fold was lifted and all I could see was that I was living an illusion.
I have no hard feelings ..no hate or anger...Au contraire, I would love to thank my Ex Husband and his wife for what they have done..because without that I would still be living a miserable life...who knows maybe one day I thank them personally for that...
I have a friend telling me that I should be proud of myself, that I'm very strong even if I don't see that, and that one day I will be rewarded...
My freedom and peace of mind are rewards enough for me...I gained myself back..myself that have been lost for years...and today I'm a bit wiser than 7 years ago...so I know what not to attract anymore...I know when to set boundaries and what not to expect from others.
Today I know my worth, and I know that in no case I will settle for less than I deserve...
The PAIN broke me, yet it made me stronger, wiser ..after reaching rock bottom..here I am standing tall, confident and no matter what comes my way from now on...I will handle it.
People tend to hold on to the memories..I won't, I never clanged to memories, places or people...as life goes on, I leave everything behind and move on...no lingering, no regrets, no second chances.
My list to the universe is made...and somethings are already manifesting in a big way...
Today is the first day of the rest of my life...I'm writing my own script and life is my stage.
I laugh, I dance, I love and I dream... Finally.
..
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